Wednesday 30 June 2010
Tuesday 29 June 2010
A time, a time of endings... I graduate tomorrow (I need to get up very early, so I shall go to bed more or less immediately after I have finished this message, after some things that I need to attend to). The academic year has ended. I am getting the train home tomorrow afternoon.
June is ending, a month dedicated to the Sacred Heart. The 1st of July is the Feast of the Precious Blood, to which that month is dedicated.
Good night, and Jesus and Mary bless you.
June is ending, a month dedicated to the Sacred Heart. The 1st of July is the Feast of the Precious Blood, to which that month is dedicated.
Good night, and Jesus and Mary bless you.
Monday 28 June 2010
The 29th of June is the Solemnity of SS. Peter and Paul, a Holy Day of Obligation in England and Wales (but not in America). I went to a Vigil Mass this evening (28th). The Gospel was the Petrine passage at the end of St John's Gospel - absolutely beautiful; you could have heard a pin drop while that Gospel was being read.
Consecration of Both Species for Mass
Q: If, after the consecration of the bread, the priest dies or forgets the consecration of the wine, do we have a Mass? I know that the consecrated host is the Body of Christ. Is the consecration of the wine absolutely necessary for a valid Mass? -- G.D., Chicago
A: In part, we have responded to this question, albeit as a follow-up, on Jan. 29, 2008. The reply was partly based on a moral and pastoral theology manual published by Jesuit Father Henry Davis in 1935.
The nucleus of our answer regarding the interruption of Mass was:
"Should a priest have to interrupt the Mass due to illness or another grave reason after he has consecrated either or both species -- and is unlikely to be able to recover sufficiently within an hour -- there is a grave obligation to have the celebration continued by another priest.
"In grave emergencies even a priest who has been excommunicated, suspended or otherwise irregular may finish the Mass.
"If the first priest is able to communicate he should be given communion from the species consecrated during the Mass.
"If no priest is immediately available, the hosts and the chalice (even if not yet consecrated) should be placed in the tabernacle until a priest can come to finish the Mass.
"The interval elapsing between the two parts may be of any duration but should be as soon as possible.
"If not-yet-consecrated wine were to spoil, or be certain to spoil, before a priest can come to consecrate it, then it may be poured down the sacrarium and replaced with new matter (wine and water) when the priest arrives.
"Only in very rare and extreme situations may the consecrated species of an interrupted Mass be consumed. Such occasions would be, for example, an imminent danger of profanation of the sacred species or the objective impossibility of safely keeping them, such as during wartime conditions or a climate where the species of wine would certainly become corrupt before a priest can come to complete the Mass.
"If the interruption were to occur before the consecration, with no priest to continue the celebration and no other Masses reasonably available, then a deacon, instituted acolyte or authorized extraordinary minister could distribute Communion from the tabernacle using the rite for Communion outside of Mass.
"If the interruption occurs after the priest's communion, then the same ministers can administer the consecrated species to the faithful using the same rite."
From what has been said, it is clear that the consecration of wine is an absolute necessity for a valid Mass. And the priest's communion is necessary for its completeness as a sign of sacrifice. It is true that Christ is really present in the hosts immediately after the consecration of the bread, but the sacrifice of the Mass requires the consecration of both species.
If a priest forgets to consecrate the chalice and then administers the hosts to the faithful they would receive the Body of Christ but, strictly speaking, would not have participated at the sacrifice of the Mass. It would not even be the same as the distribution of Communion outside of Mass as hosts thus received are the fruit of a complete sacrifice.
Should this happen, the deacon, an acolyte or anybody at all should immediately inform the priest that he has not consecrated the wine. The priest should then interrupt the Eucharistic Prayer and proceed to consecrate the wine before continuing. He should preferably repeat the second part of the Eucharistic Prayer as these orations only make sense in the presence of the complete sacrifice. If he finds out later, say just before communion, he would only need to say the words of consecration.
If it happens that a priest is told that he omitted the consecration of the chalice after the Mass is over, he should privately complete the sacrifice by pouring wine and water into the chalice, consecrate and consume the Sanguis.
The same basic principles would apply in the less likely situation of a priest skipping directly to the consecration of the chalice omitting the consecration of the hosts. The change in order of the two consecrations would not invalidate the Mass.
Needless to say, such distractions ought never to occur, but frail humanity -- and priestly humanity is no exception -- is fraught with imperfections and limitations. Thus, such things do happen.
(http://zenit.org/article-29678?l=english)
A: In part, we have responded to this question, albeit as a follow-up, on Jan. 29, 2008. The reply was partly based on a moral and pastoral theology manual published by Jesuit Father Henry Davis in 1935.
The nucleus of our answer regarding the interruption of Mass was:
"Should a priest have to interrupt the Mass due to illness or another grave reason after he has consecrated either or both species -- and is unlikely to be able to recover sufficiently within an hour -- there is a grave obligation to have the celebration continued by another priest.
"In grave emergencies even a priest who has been excommunicated, suspended or otherwise irregular may finish the Mass.
"If the first priest is able to communicate he should be given communion from the species consecrated during the Mass.
"If no priest is immediately available, the hosts and the chalice (even if not yet consecrated) should be placed in the tabernacle until a priest can come to finish the Mass.
"The interval elapsing between the two parts may be of any duration but should be as soon as possible.
"If not-yet-consecrated wine were to spoil, or be certain to spoil, before a priest can come to consecrate it, then it may be poured down the sacrarium and replaced with new matter (wine and water) when the priest arrives.
"Only in very rare and extreme situations may the consecrated species of an interrupted Mass be consumed. Such occasions would be, for example, an imminent danger of profanation of the sacred species or the objective impossibility of safely keeping them, such as during wartime conditions or a climate where the species of wine would certainly become corrupt before a priest can come to complete the Mass.
"If the interruption were to occur before the consecration, with no priest to continue the celebration and no other Masses reasonably available, then a deacon, instituted acolyte or authorized extraordinary minister could distribute Communion from the tabernacle using the rite for Communion outside of Mass.
"If the interruption occurs after the priest's communion, then the same ministers can administer the consecrated species to the faithful using the same rite."
From what has been said, it is clear that the consecration of wine is an absolute necessity for a valid Mass. And the priest's communion is necessary for its completeness as a sign of sacrifice. It is true that Christ is really present in the hosts immediately after the consecration of the bread, but the sacrifice of the Mass requires the consecration of both species.
If a priest forgets to consecrate the chalice and then administers the hosts to the faithful they would receive the Body of Christ but, strictly speaking, would not have participated at the sacrifice of the Mass. It would not even be the same as the distribution of Communion outside of Mass as hosts thus received are the fruit of a complete sacrifice.
Should this happen, the deacon, an acolyte or anybody at all should immediately inform the priest that he has not consecrated the wine. The priest should then interrupt the Eucharistic Prayer and proceed to consecrate the wine before continuing. He should preferably repeat the second part of the Eucharistic Prayer as these orations only make sense in the presence of the complete sacrifice. If he finds out later, say just before communion, he would only need to say the words of consecration.
If it happens that a priest is told that he omitted the consecration of the chalice after the Mass is over, he should privately complete the sacrifice by pouring wine and water into the chalice, consecrate and consume the Sanguis.
The same basic principles would apply in the less likely situation of a priest skipping directly to the consecration of the chalice omitting the consecration of the hosts. The change in order of the two consecrations would not invalidate the Mass.
Needless to say, such distractions ought never to occur, but frail humanity -- and priestly humanity is no exception -- is fraught with imperfections and limitations. Thus, such things do happen.
(http://zenit.org/article-29678?l=english)
Saturday 26 June 2010
Do you want to be healed?
If I may take the liberty of a second post today (the last one, dated yesterday, was in reality posted early this morning), I should like to quote this passage from the glorious Gospel of St John:
In a less archaic translation:
Do you want to be healed?
Now there is at Jerusalem a pond, called Probatica*, which in Hebrew is named Bethsaida, having five porches. In these lay a great multitude of sick, of blind, of lame, of withered; waiting for the moving of the water. And an angel of the Lord descended at certain times into the pond; and the water was moved. And he that went down first into the pond after the motion of the water, was made whole, of whatsoever infirmity he lay under. And there was a certain man there, that had been eight and thirty years under his infirmity.
Him when Jesus had seen lying, and knew that he had been now a long time, he saith to him: Wilt thou be made whole? (vi. 2-6, Douay)
*"Probatica"... That is, the sheep pond; either so called, because the sheep were washed therein, that were to be offered up in sacrifice in the temple, or because it was near the sheep gate. That this was a pond where miracles were wrought is evident from the sacred text; and also that the water had no natural virtue to heal, as one only of those put in after the motion of the water was restored to health; for if the water had the healing quality, the others would have the like benefit, being put into it about the same time. (Note to verse 2 in Douay)
In a less archaic translation:
Now there is in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate a pool, in Hebrew Beth-zatha, which has five porticoes. In these lay a multitude of invalids, blind, lame, paralyzed. One man was there, who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him and knew that he had been lying there a long time, he said to him, "Do you want to be healed?
Do you want to be healed?
Friday 25 June 2010
I seem to be writing again; and I have published a new essay on deviantART, here.
These words of Hilaire Belloc, which I read today, struck me:
These words of Hilaire Belloc, which I read today, struck me:
It is our business to give up all for whatever is truth, whether it appeals to our emotion or not; whether we have others with us or not; whether our mood concurs or repels. The intelligence is absolute in its own sphere. Intelligence commands us to accept the truth, and for the truth a man must lay down his life.
From the Imitation of Christ
"If there were nothing else to do but praise the Lord God with all your heart and voice, if you had never to eat, or drink, or sleep, but could praise God always and occupy yourself solely with spiritual pursuits, how much happier you would be than you are now, a slave to every necessity of the body! Would that there were no such needs, but only the spiritual refreshments of the soul which, sad to say, we taste too seldom!"
I learn from "The Age of Mary" that the liturgical colour GREEN represents the Holy Ghost, life eternal, and hope.
I learn from "The Age of Mary" that the liturgical colour GREEN represents the Holy Ghost, life eternal, and hope.
Thursday 24 June 2010
I have basically fallen in love with the Liber Usualis.
LECTOR. What is that?
AUCTOR. It is a book that contains all the Gregorian chant settings for the Mass and Office. It is wonderful. For Sunday Compline it gives a beautiful setting of the Salve Regina - not the one you know, a different one, which was so beautiful I was amazed after I had sung it.
It is magnificent.
I hope you had a good Solemnity of St John the Baptist.
LECTOR. What is that?
AUCTOR. It is a book that contains all the Gregorian chant settings for the Mass and Office. It is wonderful. For Sunday Compline it gives a beautiful setting of the Salve Regina - not the one you know, a different one, which was so beautiful I was amazed after I had sung it.
It is magnificent.
I hope you had a good Solemnity of St John the Baptist.
Wednesday 23 June 2010
O tempora! O mores! O Times! O Daily Mail!
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1288909/Whats-God-got-Lord-Mayor-bans-traditional-Christian-prayers-council-meetings.html
Tuesday 22 June 2010
De mediocritate
Ernest Hello, L'homme, Bk. I, chap. 8:
"The truly mediocre man admires everything a little and nothing with warmth. . . . He considers every affirmation insolent, because every affirmation excludes the contradictory proposition. But if you are slightly friendly and slightly hostile to all things, he will consider you wise and reserved. The mediocre man says there is good and evil in all things, and that we must not be absolute in our judgments. If you strongly affirm the truth, the mediocre man will say that you have too much confidence in yourself. The mediocre man regrets that the Christian religion has dogmas. He would like it to teach only ethics, and if you tell him that its code of morals comes from its dogmas as the consequence comes from the principle, he will answer that you exaggerate. . . . If the word 'exaggeration' did not exist, the mediocre man would invent it.
"The mediocre man appears habitually modest. He cannot be humble, or he would cease to be mediocre. The humble man scorns all lies, even were they glorified by the whole earth, and he bows the knee before every truth. . . . If the naturally mediocre man becomes seriously Christian, he ceases
absolutely to be mediocre. . . . The man who loves is never mediocre."
(Quoted in a footnote by Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange, "The Three Ages of the Interior Life", Part 1, chapter 12, footnote 11.)
"The truly mediocre man admires everything a little and nothing with warmth. . . . He considers every affirmation insolent, because every affirmation excludes the contradictory proposition. But if you are slightly friendly and slightly hostile to all things, he will consider you wise and reserved. The mediocre man says there is good and evil in all things, and that we must not be absolute in our judgments. If you strongly affirm the truth, the mediocre man will say that you have too much confidence in yourself. The mediocre man regrets that the Christian religion has dogmas. He would like it to teach only ethics, and if you tell him that its code of morals comes from its dogmas as the consequence comes from the principle, he will answer that you exaggerate. . . . If the word 'exaggeration' did not exist, the mediocre man would invent it.
"The mediocre man appears habitually modest. He cannot be humble, or he would cease to be mediocre. The humble man scorns all lies, even were they glorified by the whole earth, and he bows the knee before every truth. . . . If the naturally mediocre man becomes seriously Christian, he ceases
absolutely to be mediocre. . . . The man who loves is never mediocre."
(Quoted in a footnote by Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange, "The Three Ages of the Interior Life", Part 1, chapter 12, footnote 11.)
Monday 21 June 2010
Sunday 20 June 2010
Friday 18 June 2010
An Inane Online Quiz
1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) +Add+ one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.
I have only done #1.
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.[1]
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I don't hate anyone.
* I'm a pretty good dancer.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.[2]
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.[3]
* I online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. - Well flirting anyway.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.[4]
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Conservative Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone Ie ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went/want to go to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.[5]
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have rode/owned a horse.[6]
* I still have every journal Ie ever written in.[7]
* I talk in my sleep.[8]
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.[9]
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work(ed) with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.[10]
* I have been to over 15 conventions.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.- I'm not allowed them in my bed anymore. They have to go on top of the wardrobe. :(
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth. - I think so anyway...
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than offline.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.[11]
* Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.[12]
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.[13]
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.[15]
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.[16]
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.[17]
* I like most animals better than most people.[18]
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry that something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I am a virgin.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. - I dont even take History GCSE but I know random stuff...
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* Wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I'm Irish.
* I only have one parent due to either a divorce or death.
* I was born premature by three or more months.
* I'm part Mexicasian.
* My dreams are sometimes so realistic that I have to ask the people I dreamed about if it really happened.
* I like coconuts.
* I am currently role-playing. And do a scene almost nightly.
* I am convinced that I have created a character who is my true alter-ego.
* I think differently from everyone I know and am often misunderstood/hated because of it. - Sometimes.
* I procrastinate often.
* I have used Linux/MacOS on a desktop before, or use it regularly.
* I have a favourite periodic element. - Mercury.
* I have, at one point, watched over 26 consecutive episodes of a favorite anime series.
* I have thought about my future and been afraid of what might happen in it.
* I have written a good song on my own.
* I have wanted to have sex with my gay best friend.
* I think combats are pretty.
[1] I have lost my glasses, though. I don't wear C.Ls.
[2] Non potest autem fieri.
[3] I am shy around everyone, mostly.
[4] I hope.
[5] What's a pyro?
[6] "Have rode" a horse?
[7] I think.
[8] I wouldn't know.
[9] YES!!! But I can't have been, because God put me in this one.
[10] I THINK I have a vague idea what it is, but I only discovered the word two days ago.
[11] Amazingly, a priest once said to me: "I think you are normal."
[12] At least by myself.
[13] I might qualify this statement, but as it stands I think it is true.
[15] I don't know about this, actually.
[16] And I am proud of this fact.
[17] Doesn't everybody feel like this sometimes?
[18] Does this mean I like animals better than most people like animals or I like animals better than I like most people?
I got this from sanabituranima's old Xanga blog (farglefeezlebut, 22nd March, 2006)
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) +Add+ one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.
I have only done #1.
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.[1]
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I don't hate anyone.
* I'm a pretty good dancer.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.[2]
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.[3]
* I online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. - Well flirting anyway.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.[4]
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Conservative Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone Ie ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went/want to go to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.[5]
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have rode/owned a horse.[6]
* I still have every journal Ie ever written in.[7]
* I talk in my sleep.[8]
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.[9]
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work(ed) with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.[10]
* I have been to over 15 conventions.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.- I'm not allowed them in my bed anymore. They have to go on top of the wardrobe. :(
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth. - I think so anyway...
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than offline.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.[11]
* Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.[12]
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.[13]
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.[15]
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.[16]
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.[17]
* I like most animals better than most people.[18]
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry that something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I am a virgin.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. - I dont even take History GCSE but I know random stuff...
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* Wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I'm Irish.
* I only have one parent due to either a divorce or death.
* I was born premature by three or more months.
* I'm part Mexicasian.
* My dreams are sometimes so realistic that I have to ask the people I dreamed about if it really happened.
* I like coconuts.
* I am currently role-playing. And do a scene almost nightly.
* I am convinced that I have created a character who is my true alter-ego.
* I think differently from everyone I know and am often misunderstood/hated because of it. - Sometimes.
* I procrastinate often.
* I have used Linux/MacOS on a desktop before, or use it regularly.
* I have a favourite periodic element. - Mercury.
* I have, at one point, watched over 26 consecutive episodes of a favorite anime series.
* I have thought about my future and been afraid of what might happen in it.
* I have written a good song on my own.
* I have wanted to have sex with my gay best friend.
* I think combats are pretty.
[1] I have lost my glasses, though. I don't wear C.Ls.
[2] Non potest autem fieri.
[3] I am shy around everyone, mostly.
[4] I hope.
[5] What's a pyro?
[6] "Have rode" a horse?
[7] I think.
[8] I wouldn't know.
[9] YES!!! But I can't have been, because God put me in this one.
[10] I THINK I have a vague idea what it is, but I only discovered the word two days ago.
[11] Amazingly, a priest once said to me: "I think you are normal."
[12] At least by myself.
[13] I might qualify this statement, but as it stands I think it is true.
[15] I don't know about this, actually.
[16] And I am proud of this fact.
[17] Doesn't everybody feel like this sometimes?
[18] Does this mean I like animals better than most people like animals or I like animals better than I like most people?
I got this from sanabituranima's old Xanga blog (farglefeezlebut, 22nd March, 2006)
There are so many books I want to read. But the development of the will is more important than that of the intellect. The will exists to love; the intellect, to know.
I wish I structured my life better. If I went to bed at 8.30, I would probably manage to structure my life better; I would then be able to get up at 5.30. If I were not taking these tablets, I would be able to go to bed at 11.30 and get up at 5.30; but I cannot do this at present.
I MUST go to Confession tomorrow.
I wish I structured my life better. If I went to bed at 8.30, I would probably manage to structure my life better; I would then be able to get up at 5.30. If I were not taking these tablets, I would be able to go to bed at 11.30 and get up at 5.30; but I cannot do this at present.
I MUST go to Confession tomorrow.
Thursday 17 June 2010
Wednesday 16 June 2010
Tuesday 15 June 2010
Monday 14 June 2010
By my count I have read twenty books by Hilaire Belloc:
The Path to Rome
The Old Road
The Four Men
The Servile State
Europe and the Faith
The Cruise of the "Nona"
Mr. Petre
The Catholic Church and History
Oliver Cromwell
How the Reformation Happened
Survivals and New Arrivals
Napoleon
Essays of a Catholic Layman in England: "Truth Comes by Conflict"
Charles the First, King of England
Cromwell
A Shorter History of England
Milton
The Great Heresies
On the Place of Gilbert Chesterton in English Letters
The Complete Verse
Also these 3 in part:
Hills and the Sea
On Everything
Characters of the Reformation
The Path to Rome
The Old Road
The Four Men
The Servile State
Europe and the Faith
The Cruise of the "Nona"
Mr. Petre
The Catholic Church and History
Oliver Cromwell
How the Reformation Happened
Survivals and New Arrivals
Napoleon
Essays of a Catholic Layman in England: "Truth Comes by Conflict"
Charles the First, King of England
Cromwell
A Shorter History of England
Milton
The Great Heresies
On the Place of Gilbert Chesterton in English Letters
The Complete Verse
Also these 3 in part:
Hills and the Sea
On Everything
Characters of the Reformation
Sunday 13 June 2010
Saturday 12 June 2010
Friday 11 June 2010
Cor Iesu sacratissimum
...miserere nobis.
Today has been the Solemnity of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. The Proper of the Mass (Old Rite) contains some beautiful readings.
Today has been the Solemnity of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. The Proper of the Mass (Old Rite) contains some beautiful readings.
INTROIT. Lam. iii, 32-5.
He will have mercy according to the multitude of his mercies, for He hath not willingly afflicted nor cast off the children of men; the Lord is good to them that hope in Him, to the soul that seeketh Him, alleluia, alleluia. Ps. lxxxviii, 2. - The mercies of the Lord I will sing forever to generation and to generation. Glory be to the Father, &c. Amen.
EPISTLE. Is. xii, 1-6.
I will give thanks to Thee, O Lord, for Thou was angry with me: Thy wrath is turned away, and Thou hast comforted me. Behold God is my Saviour. I will deal confidently, and will not fear; because the Lord is my strength, and my praise, and He is become my salvation. You shall draw waters with joy out of the Saviour's fountains. And you shall say in that day: Praise ye the Lord, and call upon His name: make His inventions known among the people: remember that His name is high. Sing ye to the Lord, for He hath done great things: show this forth in all the earth. Rejoice, and praise, O thou habitation of Sion: for great is He that is in the midst of thee, the Holy One of Israel.
GOSPEL. John xix, 31-35.
At that time the Jews (because it was the Parasceve), that the bodies might not remain upon the cross on the Sabbath-day (for that was a great Sabbath-day), besought Pilate that their legs might be broken, and that they might be taken away. The soldiers therefore came: and they broke the legs of the first, and of the other that was crucified with him. But after they were come to Jesus, when they saw that He was already dead, they did not break His legs. But one of the soldiers, with a spear, opened His side, and immediately there came out blood and water. And he that saw it hath given testimony: and his testimony is true.
Thursday 10 June 2010
Wednesday 9 June 2010
I am wondering why I wrote "quelle journée!" under last Thursday.
I must endure this crucible.
Have you ever thought what a difficult prayer "Thy will be done" actually is?
I know not how to proceed. There is little I do know.
I know that I must go on, that there is God, that there is love, and that there is death.
Come what may is a terrible phrase, often trivialized.
You who suffer much suffer much because God loves you much.
I said today: People often say, "Why is there suffering?" They never say, "Why is there love?"
I must endure this crucible.
Have you ever thought what a difficult prayer "Thy will be done" actually is?
I know not how to proceed. There is little I do know.
I know that I must go on, that there is God, that there is love, and that there is death.
Come what may is a terrible phrase, often trivialized.
You who suffer much suffer much because God loves you much.
I said today: People often say, "Why is there suffering?" They never say, "Why is there love?"
Thursday 3 June 2010
Wednesday 2 June 2010
I am ready to come off my medication. I am doubtful whether the said medication has done much good; but I am at peace.
I quite sincerely believe that meditation is more efficacious than medication in this matter.
I resolve, most firmly, to undertake half an hour of mental prayer every day henceforth for the rest of my life. St Alphonsus advises this most fervently. There is no doubt that both vocal and mental prayer are necessary for everyone. The great Jesuit theologian Suarez said that mental prayer was morally necessary for all the faithful.
St Alphonsus: "Vacate, et videte quoniam ego sum Deus." He who does not make mental prayer has but little light and little strength. In the repose of meditation, says St Bernard we acquire strength to resist enemies and to practise virtue. He who does not sleep during the night is not able to stand steady, and goes tottering along the road.
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Some say many vocal prayers; but he who does not make mental prayer will scarcely say his vocal prayers with attention: he will say them with distractions, and the Lord will not hear him. "Many cry to God," says St Augustine, "but not with the voice of the soul, but with the voice of the body; only the cry of the heart, of the soul, reaches God." It is not enough to pray only with the tongue: we must, according to the Apostle, pray also with the heart if we wish to receive God's graces: ["]Praying at all times in the spirit." And by experience we see that many persons who recite a great number of vocal prayers, the Office and the Rosary, fall into sin, and continue to live in sin. But he who attends to mental prayer scarcely ever falls into sin, and should he have the misfortune of falling into it, he will hardly continue to live in so miserable a state; he will either give up mental prayer, or renounce sin. Meditation and sin cannot stand together. However abandoned a soul may be, if she perseveres in meditation God will bring her to salvation. All the saints have become saints by mental prayer. "By prayer," says St. Laurence Justinian, "fervour is renewed, and the fire of the divine love is increased."
St. Ignatius used to say, that to remove the disturbance of mind caused by the greatest calamity that could befall him, a meditation of a quarter of an hour would be sufficient. St. Bernard has written: "Consideration rules the affections, directs the actions, corrects excesses." St. John Chrysostom regards as dead the soul that does not make mental prayer. Ruffinus says that all the progress of the soul depends on meditation. And Gerson goes so far as to assert that he who does not meditate, cannot, without a miracle, lead a Christian life. Speaking of the perfection to which every priest is bound, St. Aloysius Gonzaga justly said that without a great zeal for mental prayer a soul will never attain great virtue.
I quite sincerely believe that meditation is more efficacious than medication in this matter.
I resolve, most firmly, to undertake half an hour of mental prayer every day henceforth for the rest of my life. St Alphonsus advises this most fervently. There is no doubt that both vocal and mental prayer are necessary for everyone. The great Jesuit theologian Suarez said that mental prayer was morally necessary for all the faithful.
St Alphonsus: "Vacate, et videte quoniam ego sum Deus." He who does not make mental prayer has but little light and little strength. In the repose of meditation, says St Bernard we acquire strength to resist enemies and to practise virtue. He who does not sleep during the night is not able to stand steady, and goes tottering along the road.
...
Some say many vocal prayers; but he who does not make mental prayer will scarcely say his vocal prayers with attention: he will say them with distractions, and the Lord will not hear him. "Many cry to God," says St Augustine, "but not with the voice of the soul, but with the voice of the body; only the cry of the heart, of the soul, reaches God." It is not enough to pray only with the tongue: we must, according to the Apostle, pray also with the heart if we wish to receive God's graces: ["]Praying at all times in the spirit." And by experience we see that many persons who recite a great number of vocal prayers, the Office and the Rosary, fall into sin, and continue to live in sin. But he who attends to mental prayer scarcely ever falls into sin, and should he have the misfortune of falling into it, he will hardly continue to live in so miserable a state; he will either give up mental prayer, or renounce sin. Meditation and sin cannot stand together. However abandoned a soul may be, if she perseveres in meditation God will bring her to salvation. All the saints have become saints by mental prayer. "By prayer," says St. Laurence Justinian, "fervour is renewed, and the fire of the divine love is increased."
St. Ignatius used to say, that to remove the disturbance of mind caused by the greatest calamity that could befall him, a meditation of a quarter of an hour would be sufficient. St. Bernard has written: "Consideration rules the affections, directs the actions, corrects excesses." St. John Chrysostom regards as dead the soul that does not make mental prayer. Ruffinus says that all the progress of the soul depends on meditation. And Gerson goes so far as to assert that he who does not meditate, cannot, without a miracle, lead a Christian life. Speaking of the perfection to which every priest is bound, St. Aloysius Gonzaga justly said that without a great zeal for mental prayer a soul will never attain great virtue.
Tuesday 1 June 2010
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