I am ready to come off my medication. I am doubtful whether the said medication has done much good; but I am at peace.
I quite sincerely believe that meditation is more efficacious than medication in this matter.
I resolve, most firmly, to undertake half an hour of mental prayer every day henceforth for the rest of my life. St Alphonsus advises this most fervently. There is no doubt that both vocal and mental prayer are necessary for everyone. The great Jesuit theologian Suarez said that mental prayer was morally necessary for all the faithful.

St Alphonsus: "Vacate, et videte quoniam ego sum Deus." He who does not make mental prayer has but little light and little strength. In the repose of meditation, says St Bernard we acquire strength to resist enemies and to practise virtue. He who does not sleep during the night is not able to stand steady, and goes tottering along the road.

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Some say many vocal prayers; but he who does not make mental prayer will scarcely say his vocal prayers with attention: he will say them with distractions, and the Lord will not hear him. "Many cry to God," says St Augustine, "but not with the voice of the soul, but with the voice of the body; only the cry of the heart, of the soul, reaches God." It is not enough to pray only with the tongue: we must, according to the Apostle, pray also with the heart if we wish to receive God's graces: ["]Praying at all times in the spirit." And by experience we see that many persons who recite a great number of vocal prayers, the Office and the Rosary, fall into sin, and continue to live in sin. But he who attends to mental prayer scarcely ever falls into sin, and should he have the misfortune of falling into it, he will hardly continue to live in so miserable a state; he will either give up mental prayer, or renounce sin. Meditation and sin cannot stand together. However abandoned a soul may be, if she perseveres in meditation God will bring her to salvation. All the saints have become saints by mental prayer. "By prayer," says St. Laurence Justinian, "fervour is renewed, and the fire of the divine love is increased."

St. Ignatius used to say, that to remove the disturbance of mind caused by the greatest calamity that could befall him, a meditation of a quarter of an hour would be sufficient. St. Bernard has written: "Consideration rules the affections, directs the actions, corrects excesses." St. John Chrysostom regards as dead the soul that does not make mental prayer. Ruffinus says that all the progress of the soul depends on meditation. And Gerson goes so far as to assert that he who does not meditate, cannot, without a miracle, lead a Christian life. Speaking of the perfection to which every priest is bound, St. Aloysius Gonzaga justly said that without a great zeal for mental prayer a soul will never attain great virtue.